I love my alone time. It's a time for me to meditate and expand- for other people being alone is the last thing they could ever want. I have a friend that is constantly surrounded by people, and cannot be left alone for more than an hour. It's one of life's wonders to me, how this person is never by them self and yet, they are the loneliest person I know. I have watched this person laugh when they are around people, and by all appearances you would think that this person is happy, and yet with every smile there is a hidden crying behind it. I have come in touch with the feelings behind others emotions and this person is so unhappy with themselves, that they always need to be around other people to try and hush the internal dialogue or just simply distract it. I believe the more time this individual has to be with their-self eternally, the more unhappy they become.
One thing I have realized more-so lately, is that there is truly no joy like being happy with yourself. When you can go anywhere, do anything, be alone and not feel like your an outsider because you are safe with what is inside already. The only thing that can ever hold you back or make you feel like you don't belong, is if you feel like you don't belong within your physical being. You are not your skin, you are an eternal light, and your physical shell is simply the illumination that comes from that light.
When you see yourself as that light, everything comes together. You are no longer limited, but absolutely limitless. When I'm alone, my world expands, I expand, and I know that not only am I comfortable, but also within myself I am always at home. I suppose the saying should be altered, home isn't necessarily where the heart is, home is where your consciences is.
